All By Myself

.... Don't wanna be.... ALL BY MYSELF- ANYMORE!

I really miss being pregnant! Despite all the bitching and moaning I did on this blog, I had a pretty great pregnancy. Plus, it made me feel special. I wasn't just me- I was pregnant me. A psychology professor once told my class that there should be 3 sexes: Male, Female, and Pregnant. According to him, body chemistry is so different when you are pregnant, that you don't fit the normal parameters of "female." I still felt like a woman, but I felt different as well- it the best way.

I loved knowing I was making a baby. I loved feeling his kicks and movements. He's 2 weeks today, and I've stopped rubbing my belly (it was a habit I started early on). But I miss him being in there. Besides the fact that he was WAY quieter back then, I was never, ever really alone. Someone told me the other day that I'll never be alone again.... that's not true. I went through that phase already. Now I'm at the point where he's growing in a way that he eventually won't need me!

Even with my super-traumatic delivery, and the pretty crappy way I'm feeling now.... I'd still like to be pregnant again!